♥ Being Nobody

things settled down abit after our last arguement

Date : Monday, 3 March 2014

Finally things settled down, her mood is fine lately. I wouldn't wanna agitate her in anyway whatsoever
gonna plan and tell her things i want to do and not want to do from this time on
I wann to lose weight ! thats my priority and also get her to shed some kilos
hahah well thats up to her at least. I gonna do my own PT after this guild event for battlenation ends
chillax

Baby,top. || 1:29 pm

Date : Wednesday, 19 February 2014

Dear blog , I thank you for always being here for me
always being here for me to rant my displease with this country
always being here for me to vent my frustration
always being here with me when I feel alone
always being here with me when i am tearing

Baby,top. || 3:19 pm

...

Date : Sunday, 16 February 2014

I wonder how it is like to die of a broken heart.
Would it hurt or will I get a quick death.
How long more can I keep up with this
When someone gets hurts they will find somewhere or someone to vent their unhappiness
For me I chose to keep all to myself
Being in a relationship is not as easy and happy as ABC123
Day by day my poor heart have to put up a mask of lies just to show that I am happy however the case I am not, not because I am hard to satisfy. I just don't think the same as most people.
Day by day disappointment adds on to my heart, I just don't know what I want anymore.
I feel terrible, miserable, heartbroken.breathless, tired
Sooner or later I will expected the already expected and put into depression mode once again on top of my already stressed out condition in my work life.
Should I just turn into a lifeless fvck instead
Somehow or rather I believe it will work better for the both of us

Baby,top. || 6:42 pm

I give up

Date : Sunday, 9 February 2014

We are just not meant to be
I give up

Baby,top. || 4:38 pm

Unhappy

Date : Thursday, 17 October 2013

Been seriously long since I last rant..
Even though I thought I was suppose to be happy but I am seriously sad.

I am sorry but I seriously cant open up to a person who don't even trust me, I understand this would lead to major communication breakdown but I just can't....

I can accept that you smoke..
I can accept spending my precious off day to come to your place every time and spend time together.
I can accept being lazy.
I can accept myself being stupid....

But why can't you accept me being myself.....
If you expect me to change myself, I really do hope you need to change yourself as well.

I really really love you alot..
But somehow rather I don't feel the same from you anymore.
:(

Baby,top. || 11:34 pm

Short Break

Date : Sunday, 28 October 2012

: D The day is finally here ! phew after 3 hectic weeks of crazy night shift. I am going to macau with my good bud since hes dropping by in HK the following week.

I cant wait to go back to this memorable place :D , good food , good sceneries ,hot gals.
Totally Relax mode !!!

Then after all that .. REALITY CHECK hahaha, back to work.
MmM November gonna be a gre8 month somehow .. I can feel it :D
Couple of fwens dropping by :D I love the company =D
HK is too boring if your not willing to spend.

So I would continue to update my daily happenings as the day pass hahaha
MMmm thinking how to I link my photo album to my blog hahaha

well that would have to wait another day.
its getting late, over and out for me .

Baby,top. || 3:43 am

Lazy Monday

Date : Monday, 15 October 2012

Lazy Hazy MOnday la in Hk, seated on a cozy chair gigantic table enjoying my self-cooked lunch =D
Cold however tasty but today not so haha as i overcooked the meat.

Things have simmer down, I really have to watch my step this time. No more chances.
Its hard and I really have to keep to my word. Things I have promise so far.

Anywayz I am really looking forward to the end of the mth and the end of next mth.
Another few more months its reality check for me :( but its all worth.

My friends and family are there to welcome me =D.

Baby,top. || 12:30 pm